Finish What?

So its January 1, 2016. The new year has begun and it’s been an eventful one. Usually I  spend New year’s eve hanging out with friends, and staying out late, but this year was very different. My wife and I have eight, yes I said eight children this year so things were different. The ages vary from  a one year old baby boy to a fourteen year old. Crazy right, so we kicked off the new year by staying home and we took communion for the first time as a family in our home. As we  woke up this morning and my wife began to clean like crazy, I mean going through cloths in our closet, going through cloths and toys in the kids room and putting together donation bags we need to drop off. My plan was to come down stairs and make breakfast, well I ended up cleaning the kitchen, I mean deep cleaning things & organizing dishes, pulling everything out of the cabinets and organizing things. As I was going through this process I was processing somethings in my heart and mind. I have goals I would like to reach in 2016 and man they are God Sized Goals. While thinking about some of the goals I felt this voice in my head say “Don’t Try to start anything because it will be like every other year.” I had good intentions when I started lots of lofty ideas, but by the middle of the year I had fallen off the wagon. I began to say “God I honestly don’t want to say what my goals are because I know me.” I know that I struggle with finishing things period. Sometimes I struggle with the follow through, I say it and it does not happen, and I don’t  want this year to start out that way. It’s almost as to say, I’m so use to things being this way I don’t want to get my hopes up. I don’t feel like being optimistic lol. But as this is  going through my heart I felt the Holy Spirit say,”I have never struggled to finish what I start”.  Let me start something in you, and I will see to it that it’s completed in you. I am able to do things with you when you invite me to be apart.Psalm 138:8  So today let Him begin something in you, that he has the power to complete.  


Man Greatly Loved

Have you ever had a day where you felt like your life contradicted what you believe. I mean one of those days where you know your loved, you know your forgiven, you even know your called but you got distracted, something happens and its like I know what the bible says, I believe God’s word but you look at your life and its like why don’t I really live what I believe.  Well today was one of those days for me. I woke up today, the 1st day of January 2015, and it was crazy. Each year I begin to ask God what is saying concerning  me and  my family, the church, people I work with God what are you wanting to say in this year. Honestly I have not heard a thing, like a phrase, a sentence, not a dream nothing. So today as I am sitting in  the parking lot of a store I picked up my phone, and open my bible app and start this 21 day journey. Day one is Daniel chapter 10. As I am reading or listening, because I don’t hold my phone while I’m driving because I live in Austin Texas, and its against the law. So before I pull out of the parking lot I was in,  the scripture started to play. Now this is the scripture where Daniel has this vision of a man, and he is afraid so afraid that he looses all his strength and this Man begins to speak with him, and the words that he says to him in the ESV is, “O Daniel, man greatly loved, understand the words that I speak to you, and stand upright, for now I have been sent to you.” And when he had spoken this word to me, I stood up trembling. This man was sent to Daniel with an answer to a prayer he prayed, because Daniel had set his face to seek God.  Please feel free to  read the rest of the chapter because it’s a great verse. But as I was listening it was as if God said “O James Man greatly loved”. As I lay my phone down and  began to drive tears began to run down my face because it’s one thing to have an opinion about yourself,but it’s another thing when you hear what heaven is saying over you.  Each year I have made promises to God coming from one year to another, and honestly for the most part I have not always kept my part of the promise. So this year I felt like God, im not going to make you more promises, and I am all about goal setting and deadline setting, that’s great specially with type a people, I’M NOT REALLY THAT GUY. But I am going into this year simply saying, God not only do I want to hear what heaven is saying about me, and understand what heaven is saying about me, but I want to live what heaven is saying about me!

Today the words that I heard the Holy Spirit say in the moment of my life when I needed it most was ” O JAMES MAN GREATLY LOVED”

I pray that you would hear not just a good cliché of what others are saying, but that you would really hear what God thinks about you.

Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of GOD or



Holy Yet Approachable, Guilty yet still invited!

Today as we were attending “Welcome Church”, which is an amazing church that meets in Austin. As we were in worship, it was amazing it made me feel like I was back at Maranatha Fellowship in St Albans. I remember we use to have the After glow time, where Pastor Wright would begin to just flow, and marcus and russ would flow it was something beautiful. As we were in that place today, a guy began to lead out in prayer and this statement hit me like a ton of bricks “How can the guilty stand before your throne?” As I stood there in that moment it was like wow God thats me, before Christ. How is it that I a guilty man, could stand in the presence of the awesome God, well it’s by his brilliance. See because God is Holy, there has to be punishment for sin, for the guilty, yet in his mercy he came and gave up his life.I am beginning to really understand that Jesus died my death, so I can live his life. So a man guilty can stand in the presences of a Holy God because he is simply brilliant. He who knew no sin, became sin, so that I through him could become the Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, and the life that I now live, I live by Faith in the Son of God. Today I know it’s hard to understand but his love for me is not based on My behavior, His love for me is based on that fact that he did for me what I could not do for myself.

Thank you Jesus!

The Challenge

Numbers 13:32-33

32 So they brought to the people of Israel a bad report of the land that they had spied out, saying, “The land, through which we have gone to spy it out, is a land that devours its inhabitants, and all the people that we saw in it are of great height. 33 And there we saw the Nephilim (the sons of Anak, who come from the Nephilim), and we seemed to ourselves like grasshoppers, and so we seemed to them.”

So often as someone who grew up in church, and when I say grew up I mean I cut my teeth on church pews, fell asleep under the pews, and had to be careful because people would jump up and start dancing without warning. I spent most of my life going to church. Monday night revival, tuesday night prayer meeting, wednesday night prayer meeting, thursday night bible study, friday night choir practice, saturday off, Sunday ALL DAY CHURCH. I am thankful for many things about growing up this way because of this I heard the word A LOT. At one point I could finish scriptures preachers started before they were done quoting them. I mean I thought I was GOOD. So as I grew I stayed in church always attending services,   I can probably count on my hands  and feet how many services I have missed in 30yrs of being on the earth. However it wasn’t until recently that I began to have this challenge within  my thoughts. Has God ever spoken something in your heart through a dream, vision, song, someone else, scripture (TAKEN IN CONTEXT) lol or a message and your response is “REALLY”.

That’s what happened to me in August of 2013. At the time I was a Student Pastor at a church that was growing, and thriving, and moving forward in reaching the city we lived in. As the student pastor I was in a great place. It was the place I had always dreamed of being. However while at this conference in Alabama at Church of the Highlands, it was the second night and I had this Godly uneasiness, like this feeling of there was more, I have put more inside you, I am calling you to a new journey. I began to tell God all the reasons I could not go, Im not smart enough, I don’t have the right look, I don’t have the education, what will they think of me, how will they receive me, I began to tell God I’m in a great place right now, things are about to explode here in this church, God I am a Student Pastor, I love this generation I love working with teens, and tweens, and young adults. THIS IS MY NITCH. As I was standing there it was like God was saying one thing, but I would have reasons of Why not, and a lot of them were just the way I saw myself. Truth be told I am a lot more critical of myself than I am of others, I can give other people a break but when it comes to me it’s like nope no break for you. I can pray for others and believe God will do it for them, but when it comes to me God won’t do it for me, through me or with me. Ive messed up (A LOT) I have made decisions and choices I can’t take back. I have missed to many opportunities, times I should have pushed I didn’t, times I should not have pushed I did, I mean this is all going through my head in a worship service. I remember the two songs that Pastor Chris sang that night and one of them was “GREAT I AM” from New Life worship. As worship was going on I felt the tension in my heart begin to build, and God was saying, I say this and I would say but I say this, then it Got to the bridge of the song and it says- THE MOUNTAINS SHAKE BEFORE YOU THE DEMONS RUN AND FLEE, AT THE MENTION OF YOUR NAME KING OF MAJESTY, THERE IS NO POWER IN HELL OR ANY WHO CAN STAND BEFORE THE POWER AND THE PRESENCE OF THE GREAT I AM. At that moment the flood gates broke I began to say OK GOD YOU WIN, I will come into agreement with what your saying over me, and through me and to me. I just began to cry, now the funny thing is it had been about two years since I had cried, other than a situation I had happening with my Mother. But it was like this overwhelming peace began to flood my heart and in that moment, it wasn’t a demon in hell, or a mountain that stood before him, It was simply how I saw myself. I felt like the children of israel, WE WERE GRASS HOPPERS IN THEIR EYES AND OUR OWN. But in that moment I realized not even my own precipitation can stand against God.  Maybe your in this challenging place where God has spoken something concerning you but you can’t believe it because you have your own perception of you, I challenge you in this moment to take a few minutes and ask? GOD HOW DO YOU SEE ME? What are you saying over my life in this moment? Who can know the thoughts of a man but the spirit of a man, and Who can know the Thoughts of God but the Spirit of God, ask for not just information but revelation that helps change not just the way you think about yourself, but also for revelation that reveals the lies you may be believing about God.  

1 Corinthians 2:11 For who knows a person’s thoughts except the spirit of that person, which is in him? So also no one comprehends the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.